Monday, August 17, 2015

Video Analysis - M3LL155x

I was very excited to watch Twigs latest video, M3LL155x . The videography is awe inspiring and takes full advantage of what can be done in music videos.

Seeing a humanified Anglerfish in there was awesome.

Dress me up, I'm your doll.
Love me rough, I'm your doll.

In my perspective, after the beginning song gives me an impression of a Twigs who is sexy especially in the eyes of a (white) male, making her 'exotic' and inhuman like a cheaply made, mass produced blow up doll; only to be consumed, used up, left and forgotten.

In dating, being in the gyaru community, being a female, I can definately see how men can reduce human female bodied persons to an inanimate object to be used only for sexual purposes.

You've got a goddamn nerve.

Twigs wakes up, pregnant with a child after having been used up. Before giving birth, her water breaks, paint spilling out, and a (Black) man looking disgusted with her.

In this part of the video, a person more of her ethnicity seems to cast her out due to her being impregnanted by a white male.

Now hold that pose for me.

Twigs gives birth to her own 'minions' ,one still with childlike curiosity and another that appears to be her alternate self, bound to herself in Creepy Yeha's fashionably erotic bondage pieces.

With my own experiences, I see it as a story of destructive lust in an interracial coupling,  and fighting through the pain it can cause when you dehumanize a woman who can bare children and reduce her to those functions.
The white man who uses her is no where to be seen in the later half of the video at all, something that people who have grown up without a father have experience with.

What's your thoughts on her new video?

Sunday, July 19, 2015


Went to the beach with the babies, Mora-baddd, ___Niquey, Vega,Gucci and one of their friends. 🌺

It was wayyyyyy too hot to be at the beach unless you were going to chill in the water... literally! 😜👓🔥

Too bad summer is almost over! I only stayed in Chicago since my last trip to work with Golds Infinity, Rei, Nino, Michi and other fashionable gals in the comm last summer. It was pretty exciting being able to dress how I wanted to work with people and businesses that know about the fashion etc.

I feel bad for missing it this year, 😩(even as an attendee)  and not being able to go back to atleast chill and derp around LA. I also have to cross off attending Sepiamemory's Blogger D-tan's para panel as well.....

Maybe I'll visit again during the fall? 🍁🍂🍃

Friday, June 12, 2015

Nature Sanctuary

Long time no see readers!

Spent the night with Jade, Jojo and James
Been busy and away from the wifi for some time. I just have been updating things mostly from my phone so I can only do so much on a mobile device!
Tried to make a broom at the Nature Sanctuary... It didn't turn out so well...
I visit the beach and Nature Sanctuary quite often on the South Side of Chicago. I was able to mimic and summon black birds and seagulls over there, and make them hover in the air too! It freaks people out or they don't know why I am so loud, but I don't care!

Saw the sunrise in my own city! yippu!

 I was also able to see 2 male ducks and a female duck, and a some moments later, I was able to see a mother duck with her ducklings. They were so cute and the ducklings were small enough to walk on the lily pads there!
Fishing for a piece of dried leaf

Drew an eye in the dirt with a shovel. Its very... crude compared to my pen and ink drawings.

I also brought over sticks, branches, and dry leaves for one of the fire pits there so I could create a campfire and also let the smoke from the fire keep some of the mosquitos away from me. The fire does make the birds seem a lil anxious, but since it is contained, they don’t need to worry too much!

Handmade Clock/compass
The top part faces towards downtown. The right side faces the lake.

I was able to create graphite from the burnt branches too! I used that to mark on the circular stone structures where I saw the sun rise or the moment where the sun was in the sky!

I did chill with a few nice people who walked past my campfire spot, and tried to be friendly to some who actually threw rocks at me when I saw them at the beach WHILE other adults were nearby. I guess not everyone who is your colour or race/ethnicity or even younger than you will be friendly to you or respect you. :/

Caught some of it! Yippu!
I hope to bring some of my old gyaru-sa members over there one day. The Nature Sanctuary is a bit far for a lot of them since they live further up north than where it is located. I don’t want the neighborhood to deter them away from a beautiful place in South Shore!!

Until next time you all! 

Redbubble items up! click here
I buy my super cute circle lens from PinkyParadise

Thursday, June 4, 2015

Weddin' Season

Though I am still single for about 1 year and 7months now, the anxiety that comes with just thinking about marriage still pops up in my head:

Will I get married? Will I find someone who will actually be there for me? Will we be a good team together? Will they accept me for who I am? Will I accept them? Will they honestly like me for me?

Its not like I have been in a relationship for years or even ACTUALLY engaged to even have it be a big deal for me to freak out about it... but still!

Working at Joann Fabrics and Crafts and having to stock and price tulle, table decorations, sashes, and signage for people into diy wedding crafts and bachelorette parties.

Seeing an advertisement when I was working for Joanns about Joann Fabrics and Crafts about diying gifts and crafts for weddings.

I go to a karaoke bar about two months ago, and there are bridesmaids singing "Gangster's Paradise".

I windowshop in various places for deals and just passing time to turn around and see slightly tacky white blinged out things like "wifey" and "bride".

This past weekend while waiting in line to get into SoundBar, a group of bros (one was pretty cute though, ahahaha) was talking about one of the guys in the group being engaged and his last night of being a non married man. a group of ladies wearing fake leis following a bride to be with a not so matching white veil on her head... and two white guys calling themselves honkies and talking about "honky grits"... ok... that last bit was just a random part of a convo from waiting in line with them.

For me to be nearing my 30s (yikes!), time passing me by, and almost barely touching my goals if at all, I still get flustered by the fleeting thoughts and reminders in normal life that people do still get married to each other, and... that I may get hitched to someone in this lifetime. 

Maybe it won't be all that bad when it does happen, and I'll just have freak out moments with planning stuff out... I guess.

Enjoy this hilarious "horror" video about wedding season from Buzzfeed~!!

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Alice: Madness Returns

A few months ago, I started, played through and finished Alice Madness Returns, totally skipping the first part of the story that came out on pc years ago. American McGee’s Alice was on my list of horror fantasy games to play for many years before I got into playing titles like Fatal Frame, Silent Hill or Resident Evil, but console gaming proved easier for me.
Alice Madness Returns follows the story of a dark haired Alice in a world that makes Tim Burton’s universes very Disney like. She is on a journey to saving herself in a dreary and depressing normal life and saving her own world, Wonderland from destructive outer forces and demonic looking foes with the help of a very sinister looking wide grinned Cat and unusual items for weapons. This mangy cat gives you very interesting advice, not only for in game usage, but interesting quotes to think on in general. Curiouser and curiouser!
Her story gets darker throughout gameplay, shifting from general strangeness to the downright absurd and disturbing as you uncover parts of characters’ backgrounds and Alice’s story about the fire. Playing this game gave me a lot of “WTF” moments as my original memory of Alice in Wonderland as a fun and delightfully weird children’s tale was turned inside out with no effs given. There was still some of the charm within the game, but with the downright evilness of some of the characters and the helplessness of some of the others and very sickening depictions of olden day mental asylums, this game breathed a different kind of life into a tale a lot of us have known.
I loved the Chesire cat’s and Alice’s updated character design from the first game, and also the graphics for the gameplay. I also admired the weapon designs to help it fit in this dark/dystopian/disturbing Wonderland. The game boards or places that she visited were done in a very creative manner to fit within this dark wonderland and I loved exploring them and seeing what each level had to offer in terms of surprises.
I had to get used to the gameplay and not losing important battles, but I caught on quickly, and didn’t experience too many problems like with the game that came before with movement and quickness of responsiveness. (gameplay issues) The gameplay had progressed with this second installment and did not distract from the story line, nor did it make me overly frustrated which is a plus.
Being into fashion and special abilities when it comes to games and replay value of a game, this game came through with different styled outfits for Alice to wear. The tentacle like dress and the Chesire styled ones were my favorites! I would totally replay this game and unlock more of the story line and hidden content.

Have you had a chance to play Alice Madness Returns? What did you think about it? Don’t be shy! Share your experience with us!

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Mortal Kombat: Time Travel

As a person who has played Mortal Kombat as a youngster, it made me quite pleased to know that the new Mortal Kombat was made in Chicago. To some people, this may not be an important bit of information.  To those who know where the game and game kompany originated from, this is a big deal!
1536136-sonya_blade_largeThe first outfit I wanted to highlight is Sonya Blade’s halter top and leggings kombo. Her outfit is fitted to show off her muscles and strength, but very late 80’s early 90’s inspired. Her slightly loose high ponytail, and bangs is a very 90’s athletic look for her, but not very fashionable or kute.
Moving on to Kitana’s outfit… I would break down all of the princess’ fighting kostumes, but that would be far too redundant since they wore the same exact thing in the early Mortal Kombat games! Limited game memory for kharacters and all of that for the arcade and Super Nintendo. Old gen konsole problems.
The princess’  wore what looks like halter top styled swimsuits with knee high flat soled boots. No heels were worn in these earlier games, so foot gear was very practical for female fighters in the Mortal Kombat universe. Their fighting gear was sexy in a sense, but very subdued kompared to the feminine outfits of the more kurrent games that have been released.
Illustration by Jhonatas Batalha

Queen Sindel, one of the most recognized kharacters in the series is not exempt from this fashion post! Her outfit is more revealing than the other kharacters, and doesn’t have the halter top to secure the outfit at her shoulders/neck like the other ladies. She also wears longer boots that kover up most of her kalf than stopping at the knee.  Out of the female kharacters, her outfit is more “sexy” and too cheesy while not going overboard like in some fighting games.
With these visuals from the old MK games, how do you feel about the fashion direction of these klassic kickass female kharacters? Share your thoughts in the komment section below! We would love to hear from you!

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Acen 2015

Wowzers! Another Acen  has passed by!
Machii, Neesie, Tomo, Jade and I at my Gyaru Panel
I had my panel about gyaru fashion on Friday! I let people check out what was in my bag, answered questions about hair, make up and accessories, and had some guest speakers as well! It was a chill atmosphere, and I was glad people were able to come through.

Though I wish I danced the night away at Soap Bubble, I danced, shimmied, and bebopped along throughout the Dealer Hall's floor. 

I bought two books this year... A Kiki's Delivery service art book, and a Tabekoji one. heh heh heh. Um... it was totally because of the detail in the make up and hair! I promise!

 I didnt splurge a lot, but it was very tempting to do so! Too many cute kimono, art books, collectors figures, Legend of Zelda paraphernalia (who wouldn't want the classic and iconic Hyrulian shield or an ocarina?) and animal ears caught my eye this year.
From the MisoLucki shoppe
I had trouble picking out something from the MisoLucki shoppe. They had some super cool shirts and I was too tempted to get the shirt with Bruce Lee on it!!!
I thought buying something small would suffice... but there were too many cute and sassy pins and earrings. I asked a group to help me choose a pin with words while I settled on a decision that dealt with food. (^w^)

I even got cute hair ties and a super cute bag from Machii. Thank you!

Julie from my high school! Hadn't seen her in 5 years!!
I met up with a lot of people that I hadn't seen in a while! From Alan and Dino (the two I met at a parapara panel years ago) to classmates from highschool and gals who were apart of the Chicago Diamond gyarusa, Black*Cherry/Gal*Luxy. We were all running around so it was hard to all come together and stay put this year, but even a quick hello brought joy to my heart.

Pic cred from Neesie!

Me and my sis as BlackWidow!

So cool!

Suiting up
 I tried on two kimono and Samurai armour too! I didn't get a lot of selfie's this year, but that's ok!

You can check out more pictures I posted on my post for SugarGamers here.

Anime Central: 2015

My Little Pony
This Acen was filled with lots of familiarity; meeting and catching up with old friends  from school or the gyaru and cosplay community and of course some from SugarGamers, taking pictures, checking out tons of spectacular goodies in the Dealers Hall, and staying up super late. However, some things were different this year, including your Galtaku* , Lisha, having her own panel about gyaru fashion and totally missing the rave.KIMG0502
Vincent and Sorceress Edea
Alice (knight outfit) from Madness Returns “How’d you get so tall, Alice?”

At my panel, I took a lighthearted approach with describing the fashion and answering questions, even playing some Eurobeat music that had a parapara dance tied to it. I showed some of my essential items in my handmade denim purse, letting the audience see what make-up items I used for my look, the cards I used for getting discounts at stores, and what brand of lashes I favored.
Cool style, Cool Tattoo
What a deer! Her dress and flower headdress was so cute!
I encouraged the audience to get up and look at the items I brought. I even had some of the local gals come up to answer questions that the audience had. I was glad I had a diverse audience to speak to and despite not having video for my panel, it worked out!
My Little Pony

Though I did not get “turnt up” for the rave, I chatted with Monica, Kat, and Keisha, looked at gorgeous accessories and clothes from steampunk and traditional Japanese fashion, and even got suited up in Samurai armor! I was very tempted to buy a sword or a stylish kimono, but there were far too many beautiful designs to choose from!
Samurai Gyaru! I don’t need a sword… I can use my nails!

Some of you might be wondering what the heck a “galtaku” is. It is a word that combines gyaru  (gyaru fashion or make up) and otaku (Japanese word for nerd).
Ginyu Force
Though Acen is geared towards cosplay and Japanese oriented comics and animation, there were so many lolitas in varying styles and themes there! I had to oogle Akira’s line of vkei/gothic lolita clothes and accessories. Also… there were some Deadpool’s , even one in a pirate outfit, some Mr. Fawkes’, and friendly fuzzy furries strolling about. Not too many gyaru this year though!
Chihiro and Kiki

Did you go to Acen this year? What panels did you attend or what did you buy for your gaming or fashion collection? Don’t be shy! Share!

Tuesday, May 5, 2015


Its funny... 
thinkin on it, 
how as a young adult, 
i made my way out to Oak Park to meet with people from the internet, that...
only one girl came to CT to meet with me.


it took a long time for people to come out to see me... 

 i live further south than they did at the time. frown emoticon 

or being stood up when id invite people to art shows and stuff. 

like, people came in groups to see me in the hood (well, not too far south, of course. dont want chilrens gettin scared! lol) 

like, you cant come by yourself? lolololol.

i guess, that should have told me right then and there that i should have stopped talking to a certain person after being stood up so much!

the girl that came to CT with me
the one who didnt leave me hanging
alone on the train platform with my blue hair
made me really happy to be outside.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Final Fantasy Jerk Offs: Yuna

The sweet looking, David Bowie eyed, high summoner of Final Fantasy 10 is second on the SG list of Final Fantasy Jerk offs!
Though some people may view Yuna as the hardworking daughter of Lord Braska, sacrificing her young life in order to save the people in the land of Spira, I found some evidence to dispute her total innocence.
Yuna scheming to lure Tidus in.

After Yuna summons Valefor, and is sitting with two elderly people and a child at night time, Yuna seeks Tidus’ thoughts on if she can become a High summoner or not. When he says yes, her tone of voice changes slightly when she “asks” if they are going to ride on the same boat when they depart so they have a chance to talk about Zanarkand.ffjerk2
While some people might think that she is flirting with Tidus, remember that her main goal is to collect the Aeons and have guardians protect her in her journey. Not necessarily have a hot and steamy relationship with the star player of the Zanarkand Abes.
Another instance, is when you have to fight against the strong Kimahri when you leave the temple in Besaid. After a few hits in, Wakka calls a stop to the fight, and Kimahri walks off. Yuna tells Tidus after the quick fight is over, that the Ronso warrior was her guardian when she was a child. She also goes on says that even she can’t understand him after all the time spent together.
“Aye! Yuna, get yo boy Kimahri!”
So, a new comer comes to join your party because he has nowhere to really go, wants to help the Besaid Aurochs from failing another Blitzball game, and you let (or don’t stop) a giant blue cat man from attacking him? Sounds pretty fishy to me Ms. Yuna!

Do you agree with Yuna making the list for Final Fantasy Jerk Offs? I would love to read your responses!