Monday, August 25, 2014

Dearly Beloved

I have been listening to A LOT of GreenDay Songs lately. Greenday, P!ATD, Fall Out Boy etc. Brings back memories!! Summer break is almost over and... well, I am not in school anymore. ;-; But I have been thinking of taking some sort of class... But what?
Here are some lyrics for you to enjoy!

Dearly Beloved

Are you listening?
I can't remember a word
That you were saying

Are we demented
Or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between
Insane and insecure

Oh, therapy
Can you please fill a void?
Am I retarded or am I
Just overjoyed?

Nobody's perfect and
I stand accused
For lack of the better word and that's
My best excuse
(Green day, Dearly beloved, American Idiot)
~~~~~~~~~~~
translated:::
dear (fill in the blanks), are we communicating effectively to each other?
Are we letting illogical things get in the way of acting normally?
 Or, is it just me?
Maybe its just the middle ground getting in the way, walking on a thin line, a tightrope in between two extremes as not to seem either way at all.
Hey, therapist, what the hell is wrong with me? Just tell me something so I can understand what Im feeling. I can't seem to act normally, am I dumb, or stupidly happy?

Not a perfect person. Yea, I said it. Sometimes I can't get the perfect word out at the right time, so that's all I got.

Infinity Loop + err0r

I saw one of my past French Teachers on Thursday! It's been about 7 or so years of being in his class. My French has gotten so rusty over the years.C'est Mal!! I even forgot how to reintroduce myself in the heat of the moment. It was sad. He told me to keep working hard and all that. It was great, but it hurt because I feel like I am getting nowhere right now, even though I feel like I am just still running around in circles with everything.

I have been getting good advice from friends and mentors lately. Its like a pep talk or one of those huddles before you do your thing or play football! I get lost in my daydreams of ye olden days, and I get pretty out of it which is no use at all in this world.

SO!!~ I did the thing. I made another mini video for Youtube. I wore my graduation Nekomimi! I get bored in my room sometimes and start doin stuff.


I would have loved to actually wear a nurse uniform for this.... but oh well. Maybe next time, right?
I wanted to tell a story between robots/androids. One is aware that the other is malfunctioning, but the one that is, isn't.

And, even though all this stuff about doll people or whatever thats in right now... nah. I prefer catgirls and robots! Which totally takes me back to my old online gaming and Apocryfa ones too. 

Friday, August 22, 2014

Updaterrrr

WOWZERS.
So much to process lately, and this might be long so.... grab a snack!

This past week has been a lil crazy. Maybe its just me...  Just trying to get out of this rut I've been stuck in for a bit. Being in a rut when you are trying to be productive and get things done and not stall (ehhh...)... gahh.... its no good at all...

pic courtesy of Sandra
Levitation powers!

Saturday I made a new piece of art for a new cafe. I hope they do well! Sandra met me up there, and I also saw some of my buddies too! I also went to Soundbar in the loop to dance. I wore super tall high heels, and I think I did pretty ok in them. heh heh heh. But makes me sad because I want to do some major shoe shopping! ;-;

The weekend was mostly just chilling. No working or trying to do something productive which was nice. Ok... maybe I still did some thinking.  ヽ(*・ω・)ノhehehe



On Tuesday, I got to watch this movie called Lucy  with a classmate from some years ago! I think I was a freshman or sophomore at that time when we met. I had wanted to see the movie from some months ago when the trailers were out. I really liked the concept of using more parts of your brain than you normally do. (sadly, its a myth...) And someone being able to be of the universe more than just acting within it. Anyways...

From variety.com
The movie was pretty badass. Choi Min Sik, the guy who played Oh Daesu in Oldboy was in it too! Even though tumblr people were upset about some possible racial things of the movie, I think they were going a bit overboard in a way. OMG WHITE GIRL KILLING ASIANS. But did you realize the location of the movie at all? I do get it a bit though, Asians are stereotypically the bad guys in these films in the USA. Oh well. I guess it will take America more time to let go of the B.S. in films etc.



Saturday, August 16, 2014

Breaking up!

Some break ups can be hard to handle. All the time spent with someone... just to have it slowly fade.Wanting things to work out and trying to express your wants and needs... but its not really happening. Ah... feels not so good, does it?

But, what if that break up is for yourself? For you to be happy?
Well... I am going to break up with Sprint.
:p
 I have been with them for about 7 or maybe 8 years.
They just aren't cutting it for me with high prices when my budget is already tight.

I will admit, their customer service has gotten better over the years, but its just not feasible at the moment. I am looking forward to a new phone and have been looking at a few new companies. Its been a couple of years that I wanted to make a switch over, but thought , 'Nah.. maybe another two years.' Then it drags out longer.

I get kinda iffy and stall with things like this. Maybe it will be a Christmas gift to myself or something, lol! I'd prolly have all the details and what phone I want by then. I will most likely stay with Android phones.
Not that much into iPhones, even though they get some cool apps at times.

Monday, August 11, 2014

No More Workaholic, More Beach! Part2


Yes, MOAR BEACH.

I got invited to go to the beach this Sunday. I had recieved a text saying to bring usual things (towels, blankets etc) and pillows. I was confused. Pillows... to the beach?
But, even random things like that come in super handy.

This was maybe the first time I took a nap at the beach.
And maybe even the first time of swimming at one too!



Tanning my sausage legs
Selfies before naptime

Edging towards the water
 We also went swimming too. The water was so cold and it took me a while to get used to it. After a few attempts, I had found myself thigh deep in cold water. The second go round, up to my chest. Though a little odd to say perhaps, it was very thrilling!

It has been toooo long since I swam. Maybe a bit over a decade ago? It felt really good.The waves were a little strong to really get far by swimming, which was a lil sad. haha.

Sucks that summer is almost over and I totally did not take advantage of June and July to explore a lot. Oh well. I don't have to take classes at all this fall, so that is a plus and a block of time that can be used for something interesting.

Circle Lens Review!

Geo Nudy Grey Review


 Click for the Video version!


So, over the years, Geo Nudy lens have been my fave! I am not sure why I gravitated to that particular style. It has a very soft look to them and a halo effect when you shift your gaze over. I was new to coloured contact lens when I purchased my first pair in like '09. I didn't want to get brown or black because that was too normal, and I was a little too shy to purchase a really in your face colour! So I chose grey!

I also am very picky when it comes to circle lens selection if I don't have something in mind right away. Though I have tried some various other colours, I really like grey lens and Nudy Grey style the most for non "normal" days. 

Lisha's circle lens
CUTE BOX
I stopped purchasing from my original lens carrier and decided to go with Maples Lens thanks to Pepa's suggestion. 
The lens are named Geo Super Nudy grey, priced at 18.90$USD, not including shipping. 

Lisha's circle lens
Let the Super Magic begin!!
Specs:
Diameter : 14.8mm
Water Content : 42%
Base Curve : 8.6mm
Life Span : 1 Year Disposal



They arrived pretty damned fast! About, 2 days after purchasing! WOWZERS. Most people, including yours truly, get lens about a week or two after purchasing and I've heard horror stories of people not getting their lens after like a month or so! Not having a long waiting time to get your coveted lens is a big plus for me!


Lisha's circle lens

I thought that these would be bigger than my older Nudy Lens, but appeared a tad smaller for whatever reason while in the animal soaking case.

Lisha's circle lens
Video Comparison

The limbal ring is a lot darker than the other Nudy Lens type. I think this helps enhance the halo effect. 

Lisha's circle lens

Lisha's circle lens
Bright light

Lisha's circle lens
Comparison
The top one is the Super Nudy, the bottom just Nudy. The Super Nudy has a smaller inner circle unfilled by colour than its counter part.

Lisha's circle lens
Comparison
Regular Nudy on the left has a lighter and fainter edge and colour than the Super Nudy on the right.

I think I will keep Maples Lens bookmarked from now on. Their shipping was awesome and very unexpected.

Colour: 4/5  
Comfort: 4.5/5 
Design: 3.5/5 ( I like the pixelated design compared to some other circle lens lovers) It doesn't show up that much when you aren't super close to someone and it isn't that bright.
I think Super Nudy will be one of my on hand lenses. Love them so much!



Saturday, August 9, 2014

Flirting!

I am all up for learning! Even when I should be sleeping. So I HAD to check this video out. They mentioned one thing that I did not understand before when it happened....





er... Changing the subject and walking away? Thats a part of flirting?? I missed a cue before? (>.>)  (<.<) it just seems bizarre not "be more interested in me".  Humans are weirdos~
I think I will need to amp up my flirting skills. I get misunderstood and misunderstand when people "flirt". Why not just make different coloured smoke signals instead? I think that is a better idea!

Maybe....

Friday, August 8, 2014

New Nail!

A new nail for a new month! This time, I wanted to go clear + a design instead of the usual glitter nails.


Nail station set up. I keep all my supplies that I will use over the next few hours close by. I have been doing gel nails for about a year or so instead of acrylics. Though they are said to be less strong than acrylics, I feel that they look a bit better. And for this project, they seem to come out a little clearer than acrylic solutions.


Before I really start, I try to either come up with a concept or look through various magazines I have for some ideas. I ask my self what kinda nails I'd like to sport like "What theme will I go for?" "What colour combinations?" and even length and nail shape style; 
oval, square, pointed, long, medium or short. 

I don't own a lot of colour polishes right now to do neon or pastel colours, partially because I just don't own anything of those colour schemes in my wardrobe!  

After deciding what I want to do, it is time to get the party started!!!!


I use nail form stickers mainly when I do my nails and nail tips when I'm being a little lazy.

Abstract design
 Nail length created, cleaned, smoothed and designed applied! If I do a design for my nails, I drop a bit of polish on my working space or on my plastic nail container bin and use that to dip my brush in. 


 I didn't have anything "cool" to hold, lol, and didn't want to grab my applesauce jar. hehehe.

I don't see a lot of posts of other people posting their nails up these days. Mainly face pix. Oh well.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Hello August

Its a bit surprising that 2014 is more than half over now. 2015 will be on its way, and another year will have passed. It will almost be a year of being out of school come this December. Almost a full year of not being a student and enrolled in classes.

My friend is starting her year of living in Japan now. I look forward to seeing her blog updates and hoping that I too will be able to go on an adventure there.

I'm trying to keep up with post college stuff, finding work, freelance, and trying to keep myself from drowning in thoughts and neglecting things and looking forward to things that make me happy. Idk, Some days I feel really ambitious, and the ideas and courage comes bursting out. Some days, I get discouraged and feel like locking myself in my room for some days.

Its something I am trying to shake off for years now. Get some sort of balance going, keep up that momentum. But it never seems to last too long.

Buuuuut, I have been making and uploading a few new Youtube videos again. I got pretty inspired taking in new music, videos, and also video suggestions from Ultra and Tairen. So I feel pretty good about that! I have some ideas I just need to get out of my head. Cooler ones than just make up tutorials that I have been doing for a long time. Even though my latest video is a make up tutorial, it has been sitting for months waiting to be finished. So I guess that's ok. lol

sidenote: There will be a video to piggy back off of my Youtube Welcome video eventually, and a video that will be coming out in 16 days! I think its cool and hope you all will like it too.

Though I like that I am making some new stuff here and there, I feel kind of guilty in a way. I should be focusing my time on job and career stuff. But... it's a part of the creative field... kinda. hahaha.

Lets my mind take a break from staring at words and corporate speak and whatnot.

I have been getting a lot of advice from coworkers, friends and art buddies. Sometimes its a lot to take in and process with so many other ideas and what not, but I am grateful.



Tuesday, August 5, 2014

2014.08.03


I went out to eat with a few friends at Strings in Chinatown. It has been a while since I had a decent meal due to being stressed out and what not. (╯︵╰,)



 We also tried the Stringeria, which I think is perfect for summertime sipping. Very fruity 


I didn't get enough pictures with Sandra before she left! I loved her outfit and shoes!

My Bowl. Miso Ramen with Pork
SO jelly that I don't have and orgasmic egg in there!! Would have loved to trade it with my corn lol.

 After moseying around in Chinatown and totally missing the snack shop due to closing hours, we headed to Alan's hotel to chill for a few hours.
PARTAY TAIMU



I haven't seen Alan since... last year I think? I thought I would have had to wait to next Acen to chill with him. But I am glad that wasn't the case!

It felt really good to break away from thinking about work and what not and staying indoors. Thanks you all! I really appreciate it. ^w^) Until next time~

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Natural Hair Progress

I have never been the one to over perm my hair, or do it frequently. Maybe a few times a year and especially for summer to help combat the humidity on my hair when I style it.

A few years back, I had to take a hiatus on styling my own hair due to a mishap with some over bleached hair and a relaxer. Let's just say that the damage was not sexy at all!

No more blonde bangs, no more relaxing my hair, and eventually, hiding my hair away from using heat a lot so my hair could grow out.

Back then, my hair was barely past my collar bone.





From 2011 and then 2012 (using extensions, not only for
length but to also cover up my mishap! oh no!!!!)



Though the following picture doesn't seem that impressive, I REALLY straightened out my hair in the picture in the top left corner with oil. The top right corner is my hair just pulled taut. The bottom left, straightened a bit without oils. The current (kind of straightened) length is almost the same as the super straightened out version from the top left photo.

Two year difference


Its a bit of progress and the hair seems a bit thicker now as I trim off some of the scraggly and relaxed parts every few months. My diet swings from kinda ok, to omg, what the fuck am I doing to myself, so I probably am not getting all the nutrients needed for a flowing mane and all that. Oh well.
My bangs grow faster than the rest of  my hair which kinda sucks since I want the bottom parts to grow out more.

Hair Care

The products I am currently using are Tsubaki Shampoo and Conditioner from Shiseido that I got from Mitsuwa. It smells SO good!

Argan oil from CVS to oil my hair

I also use a blue oil that I got from the south side to help straighten my hair if I choose to wear it out during the winter. I don't do anything super special to my hair though besides this.

I know of a lot of people who are doing protective styles or have undergone the BIG CHOP. Have you and what's your story?

Thank you for reading! 


Also, A new video up on my Youtube Channel!
Check it Here!
Ciao Ciao


So You Ballsy, huh?

Recently, some guy from some college went "ballsy" on his resume, and BAM! Job offers!

Good for him. But how does that really work in normal life though? Resumes get tossed or overlooked for whatever reason. I get it, hundreds of people trying to fill a couple of positions and a lot will get the boot. A lot of people get rejected. Thats a lot of time searching for the "right" candidate with a piece of paper and words doing the talking for them.

So, if someone else were to take that risk, not make things sounds good or whatever, would they get the same treatment? Or just get their resume tossed in the can instead? Will more companies start looking for this sort of thing? But then things will start to get very monotonous and drab because EVERYONES trying to be "trendy" with their resume. (this is going beyond networking I am assuming too, just resume/cover letter submissions.)

Messages come to me in my life with this sort of thing:
 "Be yourself!" But not really, lol.
 "Believe in yourself!" But not too much. Don't want to seem like a cocky bastard or whatever.
 "Put this on your resume!" Nah... maybe not. Irrelevant shit.
 "This will make you seem interesting!" Or just weird.

I did. Maybe I am not being "ballsy" enough. Or not making things seem that interesting. But, this is for normal people life. Not anything eccentric or artsy. Not companies that will care if I can make content for Youtube or a blog, or draw a pretty picture. (maybe I should be my weirdo self and find these places out or something that would appreciate this!.......)

Even for things eccentric or artsy, I feel that things just don't go "right". Indian guy looking for an assistant, thinks I'm Italian because of my name and the way I sound on the phone, sounds disappointed upon hearing I'm Black.
Try to fit in like its fuckin high school or something with people totally out of my comfort/economic/status zones, and it backfires in my face.

But I keep smiling away, and try to! (imagine eye twitching too, like in animes or something)

I get it, rejection is part of the process. Eventually something will come through. Things don't happen overnight. They wanna see if you will crumble and give up. Eventually it will be the other way around and I will be the one making the choices. Keep truckin. The universe will work itself out. I can laugh about this stuff when I am 30 or 40... But...

wtf. Am I not supposed to do what they say or what I read or something? I took those classes on how to speak to people better and network and listened to what some people had to say to try to do better in situations I am not familiar in and level up on my skills and when I practice some of it.... I feel naive... especially for concentrating more on portfolio pieces. Humans can be so damn confusing sometimes!

I don't want to jinx myself for the future, but IDK. Normal life, reality.... just kinda sucks up my energy right now and makes no sense, and its tiring.
There is too much to do, too many ideas in my head swirling about, and I am aching.

I wonder if things would have been different if I went out of state for college or something? Left Chicago for a different city or leave the USA all together after graduating?  Or didn't act like myself in job interviews? Or sent out a wacky, ballsy resume to companies.... What if What if What if...

MAN! The possibilities of different paths that could have happened are endless!

In Alice in Wonderland terms... maybe I have to fall down a different rabbit hole for this to make sense or something.

/rant over.

Please enjoy my next post on hair and my newest Youtube tutorial in normal people hours.